Friday, December 30, 2011

The End of One Year, The Begining of another

This year was tough. One of the toughest I would say. Ive been through alot of trials in my life, and what makes this different is that I have my faith and trust in God, where as before, I was on my own.
So much has happened this year, If I didnt constantly have my faith, and the ability to look at the good in everything, I might have lost what was most important, FAITH!
It was my first full year without my mother, that in itself was a challenge. I worry I will forget her face, that I will forget her voice. It upsets me to know that we lost so much time over silly quarrels and I relive them in my head changing the outcome, or fixing mistakes I made. I know that is not a very productive way to live though, so I try to make sure that the relationships I have now, arent riddled with mistakes. To treat people with respect and expect nothing short of respect back. Everytime my children hit a milestone or do something so adorable I feel happy that I am there for it, and horribly sad i have noone to share it with that will appreciate the cuteness as much as me. I used to run to the phone to tell my mother, I know it would make her heart sing just as much as mine. I wish I appreciated that more when she was alive. Now I hope in some way she can see it helps me get by.
I also lost my bestfriend, No she didnt pass away, but she chose a way of living that doesnt allow us to communicate or see one another. She is lost to me forever, our children will never know eachother, I will never get to confide in her, or her confide in me. I always felt like she would be there, for nearly 18 years she had been, I never though she could hurt me, but.....people do shock you! So again, I feel alone. These two huge changes in my life cuased me to hide away from the world. My husband calls me a hermit. I prefer a shut in. It sounds less deranged. My ability to trust poeple is gone. I cannot bring myself to really opening my heart to poeple. Its just my children and I. I have made a few new friends here and there who I care about, but  I havent let my guard down.....and I doubt I will do that again. Just opens myself to hurt. Trust noone.
We bought our house, where this would be a good thing for most poeple it was actually a painful process through and through and we ended up being very screwed financially through out the entire process by the seller of the home. She claims she lost, but the truth is, she didnt lose as much as we did. and she chose to let the house go to short sale, and wanted it to foreclose. So after 6 months of making a sale, we were financially struggling more then ever and attempting to do everything possible to get back on our feet...just as we were coming out of it slightly, my husband loses his job. We have not had any money coming in two months. Its very scary, but we are counting our blessings, we have always had what we need and for the most part alll of the companys we owe seem to understand. (cept for the credit cards) the children were even given i would have to say their best christmas due to so many thoughtful friends (angels) helping out ...I cannot thank them enough! I have learned so much from all the bad that has happened and even more from the good.
I know that everything happens for a reason andw ith teh bad good is always worked into it. I learned that you cant buy the feeling that you get when so many strangers will pull together to help a family in need. It has also made my son think about how much he has to be greatful for, and now he wants to help donate food to food banks. I encourage him to do so, (small bonus, the community service will loook good for getting into Yale) I have gotten so many examples of how we are protected and taken care of. That we will never go without. To trust!!
Some good things that happened this year also, Im expecting another blessing. In three months we will welcome a new sweet babe into the world and I am so excited to meet this little fiesty love bug dancing around in  my belly. Our plans for the new year is to start our own business's. How? I have no idea, but Im sure something will work out. Life might be throwing us a hard ball lately for whatever reason, but we are throwing them back and working harder then ever to get our life back on track, Makes me content to know, that we are not doing it alone.
Happy New Years everyone, I hope the new year brings happiness, love and peacefullness to everyone <3 01 02 18

Sunday, August 28, 2011

The Room With Many Hats

This is our dining room. It serves many purpouses. Its  my husbands office, my sewing room, where we eat, and our school room. Since my son was in preschool I have been homeschooling him.Now before you go and assume that I am anti public school becuase I do so, let me stop you. We chose to homeschool our son, simply becuase I enjoy it. I enjoy him being at home, learning with him, and teaching him charactor building. See? Out of allf of my reasons I didnt knock once on public schools.

after working all weekend to get the school room ready again, and with the help of my son and husband, the school schedule is up, chore packs are finished, books are all in place, and the curriculum is written out. (for this week atleast). So tomorrow school will begin,. Talon will be starting the first grade.  I thought Id share some photos with you all my efforts to be organized. Im hoping itll stay that way all school year, but Im not holding my breath.
for all of those who have started already or about to start, have a happy and safe school year!!

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Friday, August 26, 2011

Sorry for the long Pause

A few weeks ago, right after I began this blog, my children got sick. It took them longer then usual to get well,because they were unable to sleep.Did I mention that I have loud drunken neighbors? Then right after they got well, I got sick. Im pretty sure I had the plague. I was sick for a week and a half and I have never felt that sick in atleast a decade. My doctor said it was a viral infection, but I think he just told me that so I woudnt worry! After I got well, it took me a while to get back my energy. So the garden and the rest of the canning had to wait, as did this blog! But atlast Im fully myself again, and have been out working amongst the gardens and in my home.

Here are the peaches that I canned before we got sick.It was my first attempt at canning and I dont think I did so bad!! Next Im going to can beets and tomatoes in the form of sauce and crushed.

Also some of the cucumbers that came out of my garden. I didnt seem to be getting any for the longest and now Im plucking at least three a week. Im very pleased! 01 02 18

Saturday, August 13, 2011

The First Post

So we have finally purchased our first home. Its in an undesirable area. Not much space of gardening and we are cramped right onto our neighbors. They dont know much about homesteading and dont seem to interested in the idea. Who is these days? Not many, but you would be surprised to know that after it faded out in the early 1900's its making a big comeback. Ive not had a hard time finding books and blogs about it. Its been my passion for years now and always renting have never been able to dive into it. So the first thing I did when we got made setttlement on this house was start a compost. You cant have a good garden if you dont have good soil. the soil around here is mostly rocks and beer bottles. Left over from years and years of drunks no doubt! lol
Homesteading is basicely making everything you need on your own without help from a grocery store or market of some sourt. though we do go to farmers markets to get the things we cant grow in our own yard. which so far is much of it. we are just starting out. hopefully next year well have more food produced from our own yard!  We also make our own laundery detergant, bread, clothes, (not allclothes but an ammount) wash clothes, blankets. Im learning how to can fruits and veggies for the winter too, which is an adventure on its own. In this blog Ill talk about our adventures as new homesteaders and overcoming the issues of living on very little and cramped land while doing so!  Think we are weird? Dont worry Im sure our neighbors do too. Its just par for the course! Hope you enjoy reading thru our journey! 01 02 18